I dont wanna know
If youre playin me keep it on the low
Cuz my heart cant take it anymore
And if youre creepin please dont let it show
Oooh baby I dont wanna know
-Mario Winans, feat. P. Diddy

Hearing this song on Terence's blog.You know, Terence, i can forgive you for the no. of times you have talked garbage about me, just for the fact that you have good tastein music. (:
Wondering, if the lyrics apply in you people's lives.IF someone is playing with your feelings, leading you on, do you want to be kept in the dark about it? Or do you want to know? how will you react?scream, slap, fight?keep quiet, let life plow on, let him/her fool around?or just sleep away the pain?
i think i'm suppose to be quite aggressive but i'll take the last option.

8:12 PM

hahah..josh, very funny.if you ever read this, my name is not chaos in here so kindly refrain from calling me that or i'll send out a whole army of wurms(geddit?) after you.

Yesterday night was the ACJC Choir Concert.It is so darn interesting at first.They sounded like some gothic movie soundtrack there was even one point when the girls screamed. Like "ahhhhh!!!!".The thing is it kinda got boring after awhile even though their voices were really good.cos they were singing all kinds of Latin and fusion songs.I'm sorry but i thought the whole concert would be more successful if the thing was dumbed down a little for airheads like me.Maybe they should have chosen more contemporary songs and the atmosphere could have been more homey and cosy.People didnt even shout "encore!".That's kinda..i dont know..blasphemous?Case in point: When the Alumni Choir ended the first half with Sunshine of My Life, you could just feel the audience perked up.It was like everyone could finally groove to some easy on the ears music.

Holes and I were late after the intermission cos i went to eat chicken rice!haha!We were kept out of the concert hall and had to go to the viewing rm which is not bad actually.There's this long seat we could sit on and this long panel of glass and a good quality sound system.We only heard the last 4 songs.Then, we were off to eat somemore at Bistro.Had mashed potato*starts shaking to VJ mass dance,potato salad and cranberry bread pudding.Felt really bloated after that.

Thanks to my mum, who was pissed that i stayed out so late, i couldnt make a night of it by going for the Writers' sleepover at David's.She was like "so late already still want to go people's house!"Ok, whatever.The one time i can have a cool bonding time with my CCA mates, she wanna ruin it.Sigh, the older generation...

7:23 PM

sunday school bible quiz today!

uproariously funny!nat,sara and josh were in my team and we WERE FOURTH!!! although we beat ah mei's team by 1 pt only..heheh.i am shocked,stunned,blown out.the Limites got first (third year running according to the bible quiz alumnus), ng and kuzzins got 2nd and yiwen and sis got 3rd.Credits to go to nat and sara for answering so many ques man.(:

A TRIBUTE TO NAT, as promised:
let me count the ways i can kill you.
one: declaw you one nail by one nail for all your diversion of topics.
two: pull all your hair out for dropping hints like the americans dropped bombs on iraq
three:tie you up with rachel and throw you 2 into the sea.oh no..just tie you up with rachel.J___will kill you then.hahah..
i can't think of anymore but rest assured, i WILL.

eh yimei, dont sing s,n,b anymore la.here's a nice new song:

yimei you chiobu
you look like whoo!

hahhahaah...let the holidays BEGIN!

3:14 AM

what a day!

MY whole school was down at the National Stadium from 4pm-8:30pm to support the soccer finals! WE WON SAJC 4-1!!!!*screams and spins and swings around.YAY!!!IT was SOOOOOOOOOO exciting.Now, Nat owes me a LUNCH!!haha..yipeee.I had so much fun today.Went to Leisure Park with Joseph and Shirin to get cheap snacks before the match. It started to rain with lightning and Joseph screamed "my hair!myhair!".What the hell man.Sissy pok.Shirin and I danced and held hands and slid in the rain.Then, I found Holes and we went to ShopnSave again.On our way there and back, we were splashing all the leftover rainwater on each other and laughing ourselves mad.On our way back, Nat called to say he reached the stadium.We met him and argh..I WANT TO KILL HIM!!!!I was trying to push him back to the SA section because he is like a MOSQUITO..buzz and buzz and buzz.haha.During the match, he was being lame also la.SMS good luck to vj and haha..5 mins into the game WE SCORED so i msg back haha..yay!5mins!!WHO has the LAST laugh now HUH HUH HUH?!?!

MATCH SUMMARY:
Actually, the scoreline is a little unfair to SA because they packed their defense and the first and third goals were abit tyco somemore.Our central defender no.5 is briliant.He positions himself so well and he is so quick to intercept and clear balls.NO.12 IS ABSOLUTELY COOOOOOOL!HE IS SO FAST AND HIS RUNS ARE DAZZZZZZZLING!!!!BUT HE IS GOING BACK TO KOREA SOON ACCORDING TO JOSEPH.HE IS THE BEST PLAYER IN THE TEAM AND HE GOT A STANDING OVATION WHEN HE WAS SUBSTITUTED IN THE DYING MINS OF THE MATCH.woooooow!i am so proud to have walked beside him today..haha.on the way home, jia chuan and i were wowing at the vrooooom-ness of the last goal.SO whoosh!Then everytime vj scored, shirin,ethel and i will do this hold hands and skip around thing that will always end with us falling on shirin.Now both our skirts are dirty and our skirts are white too.haha..small price to pay for an absolutely enjoyable evening.

8:03 AM

MY stupid dog just ended his staring and growling match with this stupid rabbit in my yard.DONT ask me how a rabbit got there in the first place.

the MCing for harmonica concert went fine. The audience laughed at our lame jokes and were pretty responsive.(:OOOO and kash had a little -shall i say- dalliance with the cellist.

Holes and I were very disgusting on the bus today..we literally had a picnic! I think all our fellow passengers felt irked by our munching and chewing and slurping.It was very unhygienic la.Eat on a dirty place like the bus.hmmm..let's do that AGAIN!!

i'm back from DINNER!yikes..at this rate, my 2-pack is going to be gone.WILL DO EXTRA CRUNCHES TONIGHT!! hahahaha.

Yesterday's Writers' Circle was funny.Shirin and i couldnt stop laughing at these 2 weirdos who were in really eyebrows-wraggling positions. Shirin was like that is so kamasutra.Wah! that really cracked me up and when i'm cracked up, i CANT stop.Then,we tried to do a female equivalent of that.Oh dear, i'm getting to be so gross.

Thongie is really a great friend. He saw me looking pissed yesterday and we had a nice talk and some oreos.Yep, Thong, school is so much more than struggling with schoolwork and trying to be popular and accepted.He just made me look at things with a less hmmmm..selfish view.The fact that the both of us are out of AJ and in VJ is very much part of God's plan-to reach out to our classmates and to rely on God even more because of our circumstances.Bottomline is to stop bitching and start loving!

4:02 AM

The perfect solution to quit JC: Get married.
Yep, i'm gonna look at this in the most perfectly logical and reasonable way. Getting married will help curb my irresponsibilty and my increasingly decadent attitude. I will settle down and be a woman who helps, supports and nurtures her family. Afterall 17 is the peak of fertility and if i want to have 4 kids, i better start now. Right now, i have no ambitions except to raise God-fearing and morally upright kids. Being a mum will force me to be responsible for my children unlike the way i am now. The current situation is one where i stare at my homework and get nothing done, and lose focus in classes, church,etc. With a family of my own, i can transfer energy to them and not have school stuff to worry about. I will have to build up discipline and committment. I believe that i have the innate ability to care more abt children and husband than schoolwork. In fact, all i want is to start a whole new establishment of my own with no real need for capital or technology.Hence, i really wont mind if my parents arrange a marriage for me now. The concept of arranged marriages have changed. It is no longer tarzan drags jane to the cave to make out or that you are given a situation whereby you have to marry that guy or your parents will disown you. Arranged marriages in today's world allows one to say no to a completely repulsive guy. i am not choosy.so as long as he is a Christian, not a wife-beater,wants 4 kids too and has an income..i say bring it on.

9:46 PM

wheeeee!!!! i'm at Buttercup Coffee Cafe with P.A now.How cool is that? Got freeeeeee internet access!!Waiting for our ice cream and waffles to fill our ever-hungry teenage stomachs(what is it with being 17 and hungry?)i guess stupid sara wanna say something...wat rubbish how can you call me stupid???aniwaes we'll be off again on our grand escapade to indulge ourselves!!!yeah!!!!!!! o_0
wow that was so spaz.heheh.Anyway, i badly need retail therapy i scored 10/35 for the econs test, 46.5/85 for chinese test and i think i'm gonna do badly for the just concluded hist test.I feel in need of a wild rampage.*RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!*rips off curtains(PA just said DONT SAY SHIRT..hehhe..i'm decent lah!)

12:47 AM

sundaysundaysunday.

I guess everybody knows what it's like to be a deflated balloon right? That was how I felt when we stopped k-boxing.idontwannagotomystinkingestablishmentofaschool!!!!!!!That's the sad thing abt making it a DAY on sundays cos there's school the next DAY.How anti-climaxy.(anyway i'm in school now, supposedly studying for hist test on wed)I think Yimei and I danced more than we sang.And hmmm...Paul has a good voice.Rachel complemented him well.Michelle was too shy.Oh and i think Chinese songs are soothing and sweet..whenever you all sang chi songs that i dont know i just wanted to smile and slump on the chair to appreciate good music.(damn, i'm so PC.heheh)The song selection was lousy!And the videos were corny! haha..those are my only gripes.hmm..other then that, i thought the whole session was quite wild+fun.oh yah, we shld have done the havana nights thing yesterday.WASTED.

9:51 PM

dumdeedum.
chi test is OVER.
i think i may have screwed it but i'm still happy!
i was so airheaded brought my chi-eng dict so had to share with Justus during the zhuo wen time.but we co-ordinated well.he used it while writing.i write finish then use.anyway, it was good that we had this arrangement cos he was saying he checked every 5 words or so(?!)heheh..he's just so lan in Chi.ACS(I) mah..what to do...
went lunching with Holes at Wrappamania.hey HOLES! funky monkey and smozzy.Whoohoo!then math tuition with Chinaman.Yeh! Holes, we got him to be less boring.Must ask him more abt France, hostel life, etc in future.Oh and of course, China.Let's be realllllly cheem and ask him abt Tianamen Square and Cultural revolution..hahah..Last note to the Senile one: JAPAN IS IN ASIA !!!!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH

6:42 AM

running.
i think i like it.i mean it's senseless and you just DONT think when you are running.you just go thumpthumpthump and pray for it to be over.Only in my case, i am raring to run again after everything.i just DONT WANT TO THINK.i want to sweat and push my body.i want to feel all the natural instinct of a athlete.feel the dull ache in your empty brain when your foot hits the track.feel every sinew screaming out in pain.

omg, i sound so sado-maschoistic.

2:48 AM

this is a HOOT! shirin,robin and sonya bought me a really late b'day present-a thong. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
quote:"you know the implication behind it right?"
thanks guys!

7:51 AM

Saturday, May 08, 2004
ELAINE LETS HAVE A ONE ON ONE GAME

IF U DARE

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

( scarli i lose. )

nvnmind its great for the experience.

SO COME ON NOW

ONE GAME TO PROVE MY WORTH

BAH

*hopes for class gathering so i can trash her

anyhow, the baby in the pic is so darn cute rite?

Terence Yeong complained at 1:32 PM

note to myself: keep your big mouth zipped shut..i took up his challenge..omg...

7:18 AM

dusk is the best time on earth on a lazy sunday. i can just stare at the sunset today for hours and hours...

REENA STAYS AT THE SAME BLOCK AS MY GRANDMA!!! i was skipping around and jumping about swinging my bag when i saw this girl outside the lifts. I started jumping even more and squealing abit.haha, she claimed to have heard my voice so she wasnt as shocked as i was.I ate a really good dinner +dessert+fruits+mother day's cake just now.I am still game for more.heheh. going to do sayers' essay now...groan.

6:39 AM

under command to blog.what to say?
do i need a blog?i cant say alot of stuff cos CERTAIN people read it just that they dont tag.

restrain is a virtue.

12:38 AM

" Master, we've worked hard all night and havent caught anything. But because you say so, I will let down my nets."
-Luke 5:5

Tonight, I surrendered all to God, all my struggles and my doubts and my pain.

Yesterday, Cook pulled me aside after econs and asked to talk to me.I went "i failed my econs test right?" he said no but that i looked moody and morose(his word not mine) and sad, and just wanted to chat with me.I was giving a black face throughtout his lesson cos i couldnt understand a single thing and cos of the irritating CCA stuff and cos i didnt study for my chi test later on.Then, we kinda made a date outside LT4 which we didnt fufil in the end.couldnt find him.BUT, i was so touched by his concern.It reminded me of Tham. And i was sitting on the floor near our hangout trying to study when i felt tears coming.See hwei dragged me to the toilet and i just told her abt my indifference towards EVERYTHING and my irresponsibility and my deceit.Thank you for listening to stuff that i havent told anyone but felt so deeply within me. Thank you to Justus for being so sweet( even though you have lost your manhood,haha). Gave me the p.OSh brownie to cheer me up which was salty and sweet and yummy.(:I needed that moment of crying.I was jumpier for the rest of the day-more like myself.

i'm still scared for dad's job but i thank God that my parents are closer because of this and i can really feel the love they share.(whoohoo!!!~~~romance at old age!haha..am i bad or am i bad??)

The interview for the Taiwan exchange was pretty funny. They asked abt living arrangements and i told them to try to get a Christian and someone who isnt scared of dogs(unlike NG!!).They were so annoying also!!asked me if i could do a solo dance for the visitors just cos i'm in dance?!i mean practices havent even started!Oh, i spoke in mandarin for 10 mins! and used english for 5 secs. A glorious achievement!

7:31 AM

this is a thank you post.
THANKS TO:
-ng, yimei,paul and the senile one..you guys made my day.VJ carnival would have sucked real bad if you all didnt come!!Haha.I am such an ass always running away from stuff to play.And boy, did we play like mad!
-to the rest of the people who came but couldnt talk to me cos i was entertaining the above-mentioned.thanks for kissing,hugging,punching,challenging me when you guys saw me after so many months.
-ben for treating us to lunch at pizza hut.
-to classmates for covering up for me when i was off playing.

At Pizza Hut today, people started to become gross.Started naming the food and seasonings after body fluids and body thingamigs.Yucks.Ng and meiss had a fun time reminding me abt my hair salt+french fries.Oh, and herring messed up my hair again(what's new?if he isnt messing up my hair.he is strangling me) after i called his sch Opium.Which isnt wrong technically cos Jerald calls his sch that and he doesnt get strangled.Anyway, i think that it would be SUPER FUNif we have like school alliances and nicknames to identify with. here's the list so far:
- Kaya =PL(Kaya Lebar..geddit?)
- Waffles=Raffles
- Snickers=St nicks
- Opium= THE Chinese High
If you feel like having your sch down here just tag.Anyway, i strongly suggest KAya and Snickers form an alliance against Opium and Waffles.You think?

6:58 AM