a semi-charmed life

Monday, March 28, 2005

being typecast.i hate it.
it's a box that others force on you and it's odd.
it's also a box that i put on others.
ppl form assumptions abt u that may be half-true but are still as annoying or painful.dont u think so?

another thought:isnt it easier to blame yourself than to try to point out someone else's flaws even tho it's staring right at u in the face like a neon light?actually maybe sometimes it's just too difficult to demarcate and the whole cycle of blame just revolves round and round.so yah lor, might as well say

"i shldnt have___________ and i was too___________"

last thought:eewwwwwwwwwwwwwyucks

8:45 PM

Friday, March 25, 2005

we are all on the threshold of adulthood..sorta.
isnt it scary how the guys are going to enter army in a matter 10 months time and the girls have abt a year to go before uni?
and everywhere i look we're all going thru some very painful questioning.

recently,georgia forced me to think abt why i'm studying.i havent found the ans yet.

sometimes i leave myself behind, running to the middle of nowhere

12:47 AM

Thursday, March 24, 2005

i took 101 for fun tonight.
it's non-airconditioned.
too bad it was so short.
cos it kinda brought back memories of when i was smaller.how i hated 321 cos it was always warm and smelly.how stupid and naive i used to be..and how i havent quite lost my stupidity and naivety.how my skirt reached to my calves when i sat down.

the bus engines made loud noises but i was looking out of the window and at the full moon and like a dog, letting the breeze play with my hair.too bad i didnt let my tongue hang out like a real dog.

nights dont make me feel alive.it's just my thing, it's my essence.the night sky and the way things look at night are part of me.dont ask me how..they just are.i can count many nights that i will rmb for years to come but in the day, my body slumps and i feel swaddled. unless we are at the beach with the sun.that's a different thing.

10:40 PM

Thursday, March 17, 2005

50 uhh
bentley uhh

fresh like, uhh
impala, uhh
chrome hydraulics,808 drums

hahaha eh i'm addicted to this song! How we do by 50 cent and The Game.
isnt it interesting how lotsa hiphop songs have stuff abt cars? i havent seen a bentley before but i think i wanna see one now.also pimpin' has 3 meanings.one of which is the spicing up the body and the innerworks of a car.hmmmm...

so i'm back from seehwei's chalet.i'm sleeeeeeeepy.it was...hmm...different and

UNFORGETTABLE
somehow

4:49 AM

Thursday, March 10, 2005

oh my goodness!yay! i'm using mozilla firefox now and my blogger has colour fonts and stuffffff:D wheeee! i shall be an annoying freak and do weird stuff when u least expect it. hehe. i just did it. hehe.

ANYWAY MADAM CHONG YIMEI WAS RUDE. BLOG LA she said and so i'm here blogging la.

this week in bite-sized info...

not reaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllly
haha i'm in the mood to blog so watch out WORLD !!

i'm in the mat/hip hop culture phase.. so this week i've been really irritating and going ard doing the adey thing, retarded and organised thing too. thanks to adey chris la. haha. so anyway i tried to get my class to do it w me but they DONT WANT. most of them anyway, shirin, see hwei and deek will humour me but noone else does. JUICE WONT LET ME CALL HIM ADEY and do the flick thumb thing. i tried to do the retarded one w him and he directed me to the tvmobile screen cos it was showing some retarded show.SHEESH.

BUUT ANYWAYYYYY!!

today we had soccer for PE. yepp been doing it for the whole term and it's sooo F-U-N!and we won we did we did even tho they had juice and wrong for the opposition team we won! 4-3 and i ran ard doing the organised thing w my teammates and..

THEY DID IT TOO!

but they did it with the "haiya there she goes again" grin on their face.and seet indirectly called me a hooligan...haha...but he's really nice.i like him alot!he's a pe teacher with a difference.oh dear juice just msged me and told me i injured him today.plus charmaine,ethel and jiachuan too. oh yah and shiwei's specs were crooked by me and shirin(she's on my team!eeks poor teammember) was bruised too.sorry guys! but shirin was really nice when i told her that i felt so sad that shiwei was pissed w me. she said i cant help it...then her bf robin (haha i cant resist that) said that aiya u cant expect roy keane to play gently right. and quote of the day " Your personality dictates your play" WOW!

in econs i was singing the realest nigga song. thankfully i was sitting next to kash and she just laughed whenever i sang tho she told me that i did it 20x in one lesson. can u imagine if i was next to some other less patient person? i think he/she would have hammered me.i also sang drop it like it's hot. i checked out dictionary.com ystd in order to find out what is so offensive abt the term nigga*scratch head*and it says

" only a black person can call another a nigga"

whooa..no wonder all the black rappers are like nigga this and nigga that.but u see this is in the states where chinese are ranked lower on the racial hierarchy then the afro-americans. IT'S TRUE. someone once told me that the whites beat the blacks up and the blacks take it out by beating the chinese up.sigh so it shldnt be that bad if we use it right? anyway i bet notorious B.i.G and 50 ct shld have known before they came out w this song that they'll have some chinese fans right?haha.

this wk has been great.i think it's the perfect weather and the upcoming hols:D i was just walking back to the stone tables aft bathing today and thinking how much i love the sun on my face and the sea breeze from ECP blowing my hair. and i was thinking how i've been a good girl and did my recreative essay and newimperialism essay. and i was just happy u know.yah la, tho the violent thing did get me down but i shant dwell on that, i shall be contented and think of my blessings.i was pms-y enough last wk and it was bad.i still think i shld have curbed the attitude more.i'm not usually like that but last wk was like ultimate crap.

monday started off perfectly enough. good alevel results=full day off from sch!we went to ljs at cine and ate breakfast and stuff.then juice and i went to watch Hitch and later to get his haircut at far east. eh Hitch is a cute show tho i still think the allegra-albert pairing is too improbable.the plot is typical romantic comedy but i think Will Smith really nailed it man.he looks good in the show and his charm is infectious..i hope.i read somewhere that Hollywood bosses dont like black pairings cos it may alienate audiences and that black-white pairings may make ppl pissed(RACIST!!) so they settled for hispanic-black couple in Hitch.WHAT?!i'm appalled.this is horrible.

so yepp the first day of the wk was good and then the rest of the week just flew past w many bits of happiness.i'm very thankful and blessed.yes i am.yes i am.

7:00 PM

Saturday, March 05, 2005

ystd both a51s went to watch r&j at stadium waterfront.
fish leong was next door singing her lalala high pitched song.
spoil atmosphere.

but oh the sky was pretty. and the breeze was the most alive,most beautiful thing at the play. more than just watching juliet tell romeo all the lovey dovey stuff, i was watching the wind blow the stage curtains and made ripples of the actresses' dresses.eh! u better not say i sound perverse yah.

and yes...happy belated b'day butler!:D

today started off crappily. was being rambly and silly to juice. but then everything turned out wonderful later on.thank YOU God for juice and the way we have grown and learn. it hasnt been easy but i know that YOU are holding my tomorrows, his tomorrows and our tomorrows.

9:31 PM