a semi-charmed life

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

how can we ever hate anyone we grew with?

how can we ever push that person aside and disregard him/her?

i feel relieved knowing that there are bonds that will never break... even with the disappointments and petty tempers, and sudden cold shoulders and flashes of accusing words.

it's so cool how i've found this out. it's like a msg that's constantly appearing in front of me and it's strikes close to my heart.

but here's a sweet song that is just sigh sweet :)

collide

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

But I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide

I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
You somehow find, you and I collide

Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

9:40 PM

Thursday, July 14, 2005

in my darkest moments, i think abt the irreversibility of choices and situations. there's so much i regret and yet without them, would i have grown up?

in times like these, i'm ashamed that the small things in life can still have a strong hold over me.

today see hwei told me in mid-rant that the world doesnt revolve ard me. she wasnt rude at all, just matter-of-fact. i'm thankful she told me that.

and i hope this verse will comfort anyone out there who happens to chances upon it. it's a promise i believe in.

"come to me all ye who labour and are heavy-laden, and i will give you rest" ( Matt 11:28)

6:41 PM

Saturday, July 02, 2005

it's been a full month since i've updated. nah i dont think i'll talk abt what has happened in these 30 days, 4 weeks, 720 hours, 43200 mins. it's kinda alot and makes my mind race.

i want to proudly declare is that God is faithful!

it's whole month of being patience and surrendering to God's will. i'll admit that i'm still not able to give it all up to Him and find myself wondering if i should prod God more, give myself leeway and try to resolve things on my own, using my own strength, doing things my own way.

and i found out..that's precisely the human failing. running headfirst into accidents and then wailing that things dont go your way. rushing things, wanting things to be instant so that the flesh will be satisfied. let's stop fighting, let go and let God.

He alone knows what is best for us. kick the humanistic crap outta the door. God's sovereignty dictates that His will is never compromised but we can spare ourselves alot of pain and trouble if we just realise how weak we are and how we need God to take centrestage in out life. with that belief, we will have the great gain of godliness with contentment (1 tim 6:6)

Different periods in our lives...God has control of all these and i am contented to to know that:

" to every thing there is a season, and a time, to every purpose under the heaven "
( ecclesiastes 3:1)

4:18 PM