Friday, December 30, 2005
ystd evening, holes, angel and i stood outside the emmanuel hall of the temp PL compound. and angel and i said the same thing almost at the same time..that we're at peace with everything. i thought it was such a beautiful moment; to stand at this quaint old school with the breeziness of an after showers kinda evening... and to top it off there was a RAINBOW! right aft we said that. it's a sign of God's covenant to Noah and i felt like He just reassured me of His promise of love to me again. i honestly dont know if it's because the year is ending and my mind's making some sort of closure for it, or if i'm still suffused in a warm glow of christmas..or maybe, i've just grown a little. just a little :) at that moment, i could pinpoint out what i've been feeling for this past month of slowness, of walking happily alone or with friends, of kissing my lovely crazy scruffy dog, of reading good books, of some sort of busyness(but never too much)... that i know right now that whatever mistakes, small or grave, God has corrected them all for me. He is my peace. thank You from the bottom of my heart.
4:56 AM
rectification to my previous post: SIA is not a repressive, money-hungry organisation. it's actually a really nice place to work at. and hello bosses, if u're reading this( even tho i'm just a temp worker) pls dont take what i said earlier seriously. dont sue me..anyway, i dont think SIA will bother themselves with small fries like me. MM LEE wants them to cut costs, so less surfing for employees' blogs and less sueing! nah..but my bosses at SIA engineering company are really really really nice :)
4:51 AM
Thursday, December 22, 2005
i'm tryna find chords and lyrics for the informal singalong that shiwei and i hope will take place happily tmr at the party.
how reliable is the internet? what if yenny plays an entirely different song due to the totally wrong chords i chose? a little musical backgrd cld be of help here...
but they are carols and easily identifiable for ppl who have experienced some form of festive joy for the past 18 years. hmmm christmas...
every year i celebrate this season differently. this year's more abt people and spreading the good news. i'm a little scared that i'll get festive hangovers(not the alcoholic kind) and withdrawal syndrome next wk... and not to forget abt working life next year. as yet, i dont have a job. i rejected SIA cos they wanted to make me work THIS wk which is a NO NO. christmas wk leh. which means that they being a bureaucratic and repressive organisation run by money-hungry capitalists; i'll prob be forever blacklisted as the a-level kid who dared to refuse a temp job. oh well.. their loss.
anyhow, even as my senses shut down on me, due to the slight cold i'm having and the lateness of the night, i'll end with a happy note..
lalalallalalalalalalallalalalalalalalalaallalalalallalalalalallalallalalalalalallalaalalalalallalalaalalalalalalalaalalla
8:38 AM
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
i'm happy! i watched pride and prejudice ystd. darcy's hot.
but before i go into details abt the movie, can i just say that miss rachel ng is so indecisive. she doesnt know if she want starbucks coffee and doritos! keep saying want, dont want. aiyo.. darcy's hot
and now the movie darcy's hot
the cinematography is beautiful. the countryside when cast in the morning light is just so breathtaking..i swear i held my breath. and when elizabeth(keira knightly) stands on the cliffs, it's WOW. and darcy's house is gorgeous...in the day, it looks so imposing standing behind the water feature(is it a pond?but it's rectangle). and at night, it's like walking into this stately but still very er4 ren2 shi4 jie4 thingie. but i think best of all is when bingley proposes to jane in the bennett's house. the light on her blond hair and soft pretty face is so well done! and her dress was so plain but stunning. it made me think i want to look like that when i'm proposed to too. darcy's hot.
the people. ok now i have a few bones to pick.. keira knightly is above average for this role. BUT elizabeth's not supposed to be that fiery. she's spunky, yes..NOT fiery. opinionated but not so strong-headed. oh speaking of that, i really like how elizabeth is so loyal to her sister jane. movie portrayed that well. bingley looks like an idiot..that was the first thought that crossed my mind when i saw him. i mean yah, he isnt a mensa genius in the book but in the movie, he just smiles too much. and his carrot top head is just not what i expected. i thought he wld be blonde, like jane. i love the bennett's family! chaotic indeed! made me resolve not to have 5 girls..so like if i have 2 girls already(and yes i really want 4 kids)..i'll make sure i adopt 2 boys incase i get another 2 more girls ( THE HORROR!) lydia's very very perfectly lydia. man-mad. hahaha. i love the part she keeps showing her bling bling when she's married to wickham. oh yes and wickham is a dead ringer for orlando bloom. but i've to gripe that the movie didnt show enough of him and how he and elizabeth were intially very very close. too little on that. mr collins is excellent. i like the casting director for choosing a short guy to play him, it ups the physical comedy even more. collins is supremely pompous and the fact that one of his first lines is saying the boiled potatoes were great (in many many words) was so funny. darcy's hot.
now i get to darcy. yay! happy that casting director chose this fellow. dont know who he is but he's darcy indeed. yummy. oops did i just say that? he stands out from everybody else and that is what darcy is supposed to do! and his eyes speak quite alot! and his hair is so nice, esp at the back, near his neck. he has all the makings of the classic hero. and his standoffishness and aloofness is good. only trouble i had with the movie is that he met elizabeth is the morning emerging from a FOG with an OPEN NECKED SHIRT. who the hell wears thin open-necked shirts in the chilly english morning? siao. he looks so wuthering heights at that moment la. i always think of darcy as impeccably dressed even when he sleeps. so that moment tho romantic made me feel a little weird.ok but darcy's still hot!
1:33 AM
Saturday, December 17, 2005
very very late prom photos..it took place on the 1st of dec, ritz carlton. nothing much to say la..normal prom i guess.
one of the first photos i took. near the grand entrance. at first, i went to carlton hotel instead of ritz carlton. i was talking to joseph on my hp.."i'm at the lobby! i can see a gingerbread house!" and he was stunned;" what gingerbread house?!! only got christmas tree!" want to know why i'm the only rose among the thorns? cos the rest of the girls were STILL doing makeup..tsktsk. thanks to my very pro friend, yenn..we did my hair and makeup quite fast. 
adele, see hwei and me. at the couch cos my heels were killing me.
i like this photo..we look genuinely happy except mak and her closed mouth-_- but shirin and shiwei and i are smiling candidly.
my homegirl, holes. NOBODY MESSES WITH HER..THEY WILL HAVE TO DEAL WITH ME. 11 years of comradeship
and still counting! 
rara ...i rmb what she first asked me.."do i look old?! my hair?! my makeup?!" haha, aft calming down, she recalled that we're really old friends and need to take a photo to commemorate this moment.
the centrepiece;i thought it was prettier but now in retrospect, it looks so normal. i bet the average ritz carlton banquet centrepiece is some award-winning, abstract-looking, expensive crap that pwns this ass. the food also; yah it's not bad but it feels cheapish somehow. aiya i shld be thankful it's not some fried rice, hor fun and brocolli combi like sec4 prom.
family photo again.
joseph yap aka lim peh..good times man. looked quite mafia;all black. hope he doesnt become the hokkien beng that has been threatening to come out of him in these 2 years when he goes to army.
ethel and my back view. we were the only 2 wearing almost backless dresses. and NO josh, my dress is NOT falling off. haha. this is in the ritz's toilet. chio toilet! i saw girls making repetitive visits there.
and finally auntie elaine bids u goodbye! hahhahahahhahaaha.. there're more la, just lazy to put them up. btw, i hope this photo is scary.
5:09 AM
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
tonight i will attempt to not lag behind in posting..so here goes..
JUNIORS CAMP 2005
(IN PT FORM BECAUSE I UNDERSTAND WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE ATTENTION DEFICIENT)
- was in Dustbin headed by dustin and other grp members included ng, nicolette, yiting, neopets, steph, selena ah soh, chris, josh, marcus, joseph, wilson, gerald and nat who came for one aftnoon
- was in a spacious dorm with an excellent bunk bed (me on top, selena below cos she's scared..bllleah hehe). and the girls in here have a dorm dance which is choreographed by yours truly with help from nicolette. cool. it's to the numanuma song cos it's just so darn annoyingly catchy.
- i officially think the following ppl are cute: tan whenn 11, deborah the osim machine 12, marcus 13(very sociable to strangers on mrt) and chan ah soh 14. they're in order of age! :)
- delia sucks in tickling and fighting, so does deborah:D
- missed yimei
- bloo suffers from overexposure to sun; i swear. he has freckles and cataract. but chris and i still love him anyway... *KISSSSS* esp cos i cant discriminate; i've got freckles myself which arent cute at all.
but now onto the spiritual aspect of camp
- first day: solitude.. second day: community.. third day: ministry... really understand now how impt it is to pray and go to God first. it's humility and the willingness to admit that all endeavours will fail without first asking Him to bless us and to endue us with the neccesary wisdom, courage, strength, etc.
- the mt faber experience was pretty good, tho i must now admit what i didnt dare to admit during camp mama time..which is.. i slept! groan..i was really sleepy. first, i sat in silence and meditation on this little hill overlooking the southern part of s'pore. then aft maybe abt 15 min, my head was starting to grow heavier as the secs passed. and cos it's like a hill, u know like got gradient la..i was afraid to tip over and go sprawling down the hill in front of jrs and what seem like a gazillion noisy china tourists. so i dragged my feet to a bench and slept there like a homeless kia until pastor jasper blew the whistle. BUT (and this but is impt) i had an epiphany ( due to the QT material given to us) on how God is like our lover because when 2 ppl are in love, they can just spend hours sitting tgt and not say a word. because the things that pass between them cannot be expressed so easily. so beautiful. to just not say anything and adore and rest. i hope my 15 mins will extend in future.
- i like how much evangelism and love were emphasized. concentrated so much lesser on bonding and individual growth..not that they are bad; i mean they are VITAL... but it's really neccesary to care deeply abt ppl, to desire for them to experience eternal joy that never fades.
- the rooftop worship was different... talked alot to ng abt it.. and we both agree that tho we disagree on some aspects on it, it was good to be there to praise God and recommit.
- the one phrase that kept popping into my mind as i reflected during and post camp was : mental toughness. the need to ask difficult questions and to be bold in doing what is obviously pleasing to God even as our minds doubt our ability and willpower. To not whine abt situations but to think thru them calmly, to search for answers abt God on our own and not just sit there and expect to be spoonfed.
and that was pretty much a tight summary of camp. thank u camp comm for working so hard!
9:14 AM
