a semi-charmed life

Friday, March 31, 2006

this is the MOST EVENTFUL last day of my short almost-19 year old life.

it beats the last day at PL(cant rmb what i did), last day at AJ(where i hugged almost everyone i knew) and last day at VJ(with all the photos and stuff).

first, i got off 82 to take 89 to work finding out that i have NO MORE MONEY IN MY CARD and that i was left with a grand total of 1.70 in my wallet..i dont think that covered my bus ride but considering how SBS has cheated me of alot of money before, i dont really care.

then while turning into the cargo complex where the police ppl will come up to check if u have passes..i found out that LO AND BEHOLD! all three of my passes hanging on the lanyard were gone. the Pass to enter the cargo complex, the Pass to enter SIAEC and the Pass to enter Hangar.

panic, panic,panic. called chipmunk, called work ppl, called mum, called jo, called auntie lisa. argh! then waited at the bus stop for chipmunk to come (with cash as i was broke like a pauper) and accompany me to the airport police station to make a report. in the cab i was like talking abt how stupid i was and how nice chip is to go with me and i think i made her want to poke me HARD with my incessant talking. she's such a good pal.

thanks a million trillion chip :D

at the police station, she said she was acting like my boyfriend as i skulked silently behind and she talked to all the police ppl for me. i was having a deja vu experience. i was not focusing but laughing abt all sort of weird stuff and really really thank u for putting up with my insanity.

oh yes the pass cost me a freaking 31.50.

then i got back, did all my clearances with HR and security and met the scary security guy whom i argued over the phone with before but is in fact actually your typical overworked, overstressed but very nice grumpy old man :) everybody seems to find it very funny that i lost my passes on my last day of work. as boss no.3 says :"perfect timing!"

oh yah and i met a mini wardED clone who gave me a chocolate and talked and followed me all the way to security. guess he was being nice and i appreciated his niceness cos i was anxious abt meeting with said security guy but normally, i wld have given him a dirty look.

wardED is nice in small doses...

but very sincere and genuine, so even in large doses, i'm ok with him.

got back to office, never felt more relief to see the familiar mossgreeness. gave out thank you cards. bossno.3 asked "why do girls always do such things?" in his annoying manner. but i really really like him, he's my most favourite boss! funny and act fierce. bossno.3, another favourite who's terribly cranky and chain smokes, thanked me profusely and told me how stupid he is that he didnt go uni. HAHA. so cute. bossno.2 wasnt here today. went to bossno.1's room to give him card. my gosh, the man is so busy! he didnt even know i was leaving today.

boss no.3 proceeds to ask me as i was giving out the second last card " how many more victims do u have today?" he's really irritatingly funny..kept tryna teach me how to make coffee tarik. he treated my farewell lunch at the in house restaraunt today to all of us.

at 5 went to chip's office to bid her ppl a farewell and grabbed a ride from wardED who was going to little india with his colleagues. was happy :D chip's ppl gave her really really nice stuff. i got chocolates(dove,belgian and some italian brand so i'm not complaining!). had a good alonetime at little india and bugis getting my eyebrows plucked and replacing my studs.

went home, bummed ard.. and

MUM SCREAMED "ELAINE NI GEN WO GUO LAI!!!!!"
(translation"elaine come here right now!!!!!")

in the mossgreeness of the laundry basket lay my lanyward dangling with my three passes.

10:15 PM

Saturday, March 25, 2006

thinking hard abt jrs now...wish i could say more here but i guess i have to be discreet.

i dont think yingxuan reads this but i know she's a fantastic grp leader, very organised and motivated. more than i can say for myself when i led a grp last year. i really hope i can provide her the support she needs esp since she's leading quite a young grp. deborah(!!),benedict,jeremy,baozhen and i. not sure if there are more.

josh,sara,nat,em,yiwen and i are facing new roles within the youth ministry now. i believe God wants us to harness this kinda unprecedented manpower to do greater things. but i have to agree with how jrs is teetering on the edge of not having a goal(this is very very discreet right?)and just being an excuse for the youth in church to meet up every wk as part of their social life? but i also know that each of those involved with the planning and coordinating of events(including Hongyu and his committee) have our own personal issues to settle, whether it's in church or out of church. for eg, i just found out today why rachel chose not to continue to serve in the youth ministry.

there's this unexplainable sadness abt the whole thing...sigh.

joshua said that we need to ask God for His blessing and guidance in everything we plan. not just take up every single thing that looks good on the surface..to constantly examine our purposes and then, ask the hard question of whether it is God glorifying. he's right. does this mean that we each need to do some serious soul searching? my time's going to be more flexible aft 31 march and i know i want this extra time to be an offering to God. will it really happen tho?

11:25 PM

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

another wardED episode to talk abt. today uncle hoe meng had a mtg after work so he couldnt fetch us. we only found out abt it only when we went to his office.

and thus began the 845897263829183980530metre dash to catch up with wardED.

MAN, can the guy walk fast.

binbin said he just left. key word is JUST. oh binbin also asked if we wanted to "hitch a hike" from wardED. ok, memo to self: never ever trust a person who gets a common saying wrong.

wardED was WAY ahead of us.

chip and i ran and ran and ran. my stomach was bloated with malay rice, fruits and hello pandas so i felt like it would split open. chip was running faster than me! we ran from the 5th to the fourth flr..past all the workshops to the lift went down..ran across the carpark..ran out to the traffic lights..ran across the crossing.

and lo and behold! i spotted a purple shirted wardED. panting i asked chip if he was in "purplish". panting, she replied yes. the guard laughed at us and asked if we were taking part in the amazing race. Oh yeah we are..the animals edition. praying mantis vs. chipmunk. so we ran and screamed his name and then opened the car doors and popped in. it was only when we popped in that i rmbed to ask if we could get a ride from him.

wardED's response " pirates in my car!" chip and i told him calmly" yes we are practising hijacking ppl's cars now". it was very funny actually when we finally caught our breaths.

BREATHE. ssssssssss...

6:09 AM

Saturday, March 11, 2006

dark bleeding sky.
faced with hard questions.
my faith.
myself.
caring and slipping.
not caring and burning.

wishing does nothing
and please disengage yourself from me.
this window is too big,
i cannot take anything in.

i'm scared
because i see too many similarities
between us.
all i do is
run to
a past that stands
higher and higher
each time i approach.

like the holy steeple
of a church-
i dont want it to be my past.
i'm a thief next to it.

12:58 AM

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

today wardED fetched chipmunk and i to toa payoh after work. we're feeling more comfortable with him now..and taking alot of liberties i must say. when i plonked myself on to the back seat aft reminding chip that it's her turn to sit in front, i pulled out some random looking cds from the car seat and then asked him to play the golden oldies one. and wardED is a really obliging man..even when we pick up our phones to answer calls and talked quite loudly, he sweetly turns down the volume of the stereo. then when that cd got really grating on our nerves due to the poor production, asked him to play the david gates one. oh but the golden oldies songs are so funny. we were skipping songs using the very convenient round dial and singing them much to wardED's amusement...

1-2-3-4, tell the people what she wore! she wore an itsy bitsy yellow polka dot bikini, that she wore for the first time today.

i will follow him (insert helium sounding follow him follow him) , follow him wherever he may go...

and then we rebutted like all of his comments. sheesh, if i were a thirtish year old man like him, i'll give us two brats a sound spanking. haha but i exaggerate. i'm sure the three way friendship is appreciated by all parties. okay am not insinuating anything. but we all entertained each other and in a sad world like this, with such gloomy faces...an evening ride of mirth and good cheer shld be appreciated, no?

6:25 AM

Sunday, March 05, 2006

shucks...i just realised one thing, my sign on nick for blogger (which i started a good two years ago) is notagroupie.

THE IRONY!!!!!!!!!!

i rmb playing psycho babble one day long long time ago and we were supposed to team up with ppl who can vote for our masterpieces and someone asked me to intro and cos my nick was notagroupie, i said i'm from notagroupieland :)

anyway, today i watched Walk The Line rated PG. as in PG for Parental Guidance. OH WELL. brokebackbrokebackbrokeback. nevermind. WTL is okay. if it wins an oscar tmr, it'll be quite undeserving cos it's just pretty mediocre. what i like are june carter's pretty '50s dresses and the vintage sports cars. i spotted a jaguar. meow... there's a young elvis presley in the movie too. quite funny; apparently he introduced johnny cash to drugs.

now to end my post, a lovely picture of crosby to make an emphatic point.

POINT MADE.

6:37 AM

Thursday, March 02, 2006

this is a thank you post.

i'm thankful for my results. God is gracious and has blessed me with unexpectedly good results. i know that this is a miracle because of the uncertainties that i faced during the entire j2 period, yet He literally delivered this gift into my hands.

i'm thankful for the people who have stood by me, and stood up for me. some may not know it and i may not rmb those who have done so but i am really really grateful for that. i was walking home today and thinking abt my friendship with the chipmunk(who i thank God for). and that got me thinking abt how much angrier and more defiant i've gotten... and yet since as long as i can rmb friends, i've understood both loyalty and betrayal. yet it is the former that i'll hold close. family who have seen my nastier side and have chided me in love. friends who have told others off for not cutting me some slack. i think that i'm just thankful for humanity at this moment.. i know that there're people i hardly know who have cheered me up at one time or another in a special way, people who have indirectly helped me. i'm not stunned by the social circle surrounding me..i feel small at how evey inexplicable action carries some sort of consequence..not only in the physical tangible sense..but how personal it can get. so most of all i'm thankful that i'm learning all these and that there's so much more to discover.

6:26 AM