a semi-charmed life

Friday, December 29, 2006

in the light of the sun/is there anyone...

i might as well grow another left leg since i cant kick a ball or feint or jiggle to a new tune. so inept. a week without trainings and i'm left blowing simple passes and having my coach tell me that i'm giving up too easily on chasing lost balls. honestly, i dont think i can hold on to my captaincy if i stay on next year..i suck during drills and can only play marginally better than the others during games(and that's still not everyone). which means competing to stay on the main team. robert if you ever read this, i'm not trying to guilt trap you ok? i'm just damn tired and frustrated with myself.

i thought i wasnt supposed to feel like this after coming back from the high of a juniors camp and a mission trip. oh. well. i'll sleep this away. but i've to say that God did alot and more for the trip.

10:30 PM

Monday, December 18, 2006

another disjointed post

something that i said to ng on the bbq night of jrs camp is kinda playing on repeat in my head. ng asked where's person X? and i casually said oh she didnt turn up. ng said why didnt i persuade her since she'll prob listen to me. i replied without thinking that i was too tired of trying.

i wonder when did i give up trying? i date the timeline and i cant put my finger on a specific day and time. there's a post it note that listed chanchan and my prayer requests for X that was on my wall a week ago. it's been there for close to a year but last week i threw it away as i cleared the clutter in my room. didnt really strike me that i dont think or worry or pray for her as much as i used to.

as much as i ought to?

in sociology we learn that people form dyads and triads and as the group gets bigger, networks that reach over and hold on to each other and when one person dies/loses connection with one..the entire chain may just break down.

confusing thoughts and expectations eh?

ok cant type anymore got stuff to do. but here's nice pic..

nat the mat. hug the pillow from me and em if u see this! think of us even as u live it up in taiwan :)

11:15 PM

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

you've been punk'd!

had fun enlisting the brother and the mum in punk'ng. hehe. happy holidays everyone!

11:16 AM

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

today: lunch+walkaround with em & hannah

i cant believe i've started to like blogging again and picture blogging too! turned on to it by my dear friends. suddenly i see blogs sprouting like freshly germinated beans.

doing the tourist thing at the wisma decor

christmas IS coming. this year, em, sara, mel,auntie beow tuan,pastor jasper,ben,hongyu,alex,gillian and i are going up to chiang rai, akha gospel centre. it'll be over the christmas period. nice...another christmas that is different. i remember praying 4 or 5 years ago for a more meaningful christmas and since i've attended church, each christmas has been one to remember.

i just realized my photos and thoughts are quite disjointed so i shall end off with another non-related picture. cute crosby getting scared by jo! he is adorable innit?

12:02 AM

Monday, December 04, 2006

HOLES' HOME.

my homegirl of more than a decade old. hooray! in other news, this IS a pretty blogskin and tomorrow is happy feet day.

7:05 PM